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I was a kid I would write and they would laugh like that devil from bible in human form hiding two horns behind their conceited smirk or so I had thought I grew up I started to laugh along with them Today, I laugh alone Then, I wanted to write better so, I would look up to someone Today, I do the same So this is not me writing but bit by bit compiled words of all the legendary artists I have studied Those Horrific nightmares I've experienced has nothing to do with it

न रुनुस् न बा आज भनु भानु जयन्ती भएर हो कि के हो? सबै जना खुसी देख्छु खुसी खुसी! खुसी खुसी! खुसी खुसी! आमा, आमा, आमा!! हजुर छाँगोको भित्तोमा यसरी घोरिएको देखेर म निशब्द भएको छु आईसियुमा हेर्नुस्, आँखीझ्यालहरु हजुरलाई हेरेर राक्षसी हाँसो हाँसिरहेका छन् मार्न पाए ती झ्याललाई मेरो यो बगेको आँसुको धाराको तरवारले काटी टुक्रै टुक्रा टुक्रै टुक्रा टुक्रै टुक्रा, पारिदिन्थेँ हजुर सुतेको खाटलाई मृत्यु शैया भन्छन् पाए त ती खटको घाँटी न्याकी, मारिदिन्थेँ के त्यसो गरे मेरा मनका पीडा शान्त होलान्? आमा, डाक्टरले भनेको, मलाई डिप्रेसन छ रे बाँची बाँची मर्नु त मेरो दैनिकीको अक्षर बनेको छ अब हजुरले पनि मलाई छाडी गए बाच्न त बाचूँला, तर मर्ने कसरी आमा, आमा, आमा! मलाई पनि तपाईँसँग लग्नुस् न हजुरको त्यो राधेराधे उच्चारारण सुन्न मेरा कान पनि पर्खाईमा चिच्याई पागल बनिसके हजुर त बैकुन्ठ गोलोक जाने भगवानको भक्त म त हेर्नुस् चुरोट रक्सीको प्यालामा रमाउन सिकेको राक्षस पो भगवानलाई बहिस्कार गरेर हिडेको तुच्छ जीव मरिसकेपछी बैकुन्ठको ढोका मेरोलागि के खुल्ला म गाँजामा लिप्त भएर घर फर्किद...

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Silky lengthy semi fluid river originating from her curvaceous body and the mountain base residing in her navel so empty and lifeless, so white yet the river smells of evergrowing trees of eternal fruits and my thrill marks as anticipation to drowning in pure bliss and cuddle with and wash away my darkest fantasies yet like mountain high I swim upwards searching for a myth, the legend with eyes like white rays of light in the sky I fly I fly with wings born from her soulful life I fly just to reach those dreamy lips so I can see the legend with the brightest smile

I stood before heaven’s gate like a proud falcon keeping eye looking for food. I was looking for wisdom. The gate was closed. I screamed for about 3 seconds but it felt like hours had passed. Then I realised that time takes a complete different path in heaven. Maybe at god’s feet, it even ceases to exist I thought. I screamed again a little and was left with a sore throat. Then a sudden lightening thought struck my mind. I started sitting in padmasana position and started meditating. My third eye began to shake and my soul began to shake. I saw two monsters ahead of me. They ran towards me but I tried to give them a handshake involuntarily. Then they somehow turned into angels and entered my soul. I felt the inner gates opening and I started levitating. I started seeing things I had never seen before. Rapidly I started creating a universe of my own. But this universe felt so true and lively I could not deny it. I started seeing the same heaven’s gate inside my mind. I said, “OPEN” and...

Trying to break every barriers set ahead of me, I marched forward dreaming of eternal light lighting that never ending matchstick in my fingertips that felt jovial and gave off aroma of tika from the dancing temple of hope. I could feel the angel and devil battling and struggling in an eternal fight. Angel was hugging me behind never losing my sight and the sight of its goal. It’s goal was to eliminate darkness from the roots of my heart. One night I called my pal saying, “I feel something attacking me, a devil of some kind.” I knew he was the best person to run into. He replied calmly which still drives me in, “Calm down. You’re alright. Give that devil, that lonely guy a sweet hug and some love.” The way he righteously and so vividly presented such a touching answer still amazes me. I know there is peace in me within. My mind has been chaotic lately. I have angel hugging me softly while I fall back on cushion as devil kicks me hard. The idea of angel and devil has been paying a visi...