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हेर फर्की तिम्रा ती रक्तलिप्त पाथहरु, आज एकान्तमा रगतको आँसु झारिरहेको एक्लो चन्द्रमा भन्दा गाढा छन्। हेर पीडाले गुहार मागिरहेका कोमल माटोमा थचक्क बसि, तिम्रा काला पै...

Silky lengthy semi fluid river originating from her curvaceous body and the mountain base residing in her navel so empty and lifeless, so white yet the river smells of evergrowing trees of eternal fruits and my thrill marks as anticipation to drowning in pure bliss and cuddle with and wash away my darkest fantasies yet like mountain high I swim upwards searching for a myth, the legend with eyes like white rays of light in the sky I fly I fly with wings born from her soulful life I fly just to reach those dreamy lips so I can see the legend with the brightest smile

I stood before heaven’s gate like a proud falcon keeping eye looking for food. I was looking for wisdom. The gate was closed. I screamed for about 3 seconds but it felt like hours had passed. Then I realised that time takes a complete different path in heaven. Maybe at god’s feet, it even ceases to exist I thought. I screamed again a little and was left with a sore throat. Then a sudden lightening thought struck my mind. I started sitting in padmasana position and started meditating. My third eye began to shake and my soul began to shake. I saw two monsters ahead of me. They ran towards me but I tried to give them a handshake involuntarily. Then they somehow turned into angels and entered my soul. I felt the inner gates opening and I started levitating. I started seeing things I had never seen before. Rapidly I started creating a universe of my own. But this universe felt so true and lively I could not deny it. I started seeing the same heaven’s gate inside my mind. I said, “OPEN” and...

Trying to break every barriers set ahead of me, I marched forward dreaming of eternal light lighting that never ending matchstick in my fingertips that felt jovial and gave off aroma of tika from the dancing temple of hope. I could feel the angel and devil battling and struggling in an eternal fight. Angel was hugging me behind never losing my sight and the sight of its goal. It’s goal was to eliminate darkness from the roots of my heart. One night I called my pal saying, “I feel something attacking me, a devil of some kind.” I knew he was the best person to run into. He replied calmly which still drives me in, “Calm down. You’re alright. Give that devil, that lonely guy a sweet hug and some love.” The way he righteously and so vividly presented such a touching answer still amazes me. I know there is peace in me within. My mind has been chaotic lately. I have angel hugging me softly while I fall back on cushion as devil kicks me hard. The idea of angel and devil has been paying a visi...

We were walking a slow romantic path full of rose petals that smelt of the sweet aroma of palm I was holding and felt like the heart that I was hugging dearly. This love we were binding each other with was beyond human perception. She was not a human but an angel. For real, she was a real angel and the path we were walking on was a small fragment of the part of huge universe I’d created just to cling onto that angel and see that beautiful soulful smile on her face. In the real world I was disabled mentally, temporarily may be. I don’t know. I don’t remember exactly what I was going through at the moment. Maybe I was schizophrenic. I will tell you when I remember. Now where was I? Aah, yes… The road… It was so beautiful, far from the reach of jealous devils, at least that’s what I was thinking. Who knows where devil may secretly set its foot at. It comes without warning sometimes. The other times you can’t keep your emotions in check and mess things up. As I was holding her hands, I wa...

When moon laments and howls in the darkness she resumes her shyness presumes her shiny eyes her body flies like rays from the early morning rise just like her mouth, mentos refreshing freshly reflecting recreating smiley eyes- -all around her Like they're all but mirror and she is the model                                             Yeah she is a model But the only one cause they flaunt their body she flaunts her thousand sunny smile Yeah, sunny smile She wakes me up from my dream And makes me keep dreaming all day, her early morning smile that lasts to eternity; a sunly smile; a sunny smile Me remembering her creates a wordy confusion Sunly/sunny but sun knows it; her rays from morning rise creates life                                         ...

सुन्नु न। आज चिडियाखाना घुमेँ। धेरै थरीका पंछी देखेँ जनावर माछा फुल देखेँ तर हेरेक जीवमाथी लगाईएको बन्धन देखेर हजुरहरुको याद आयो। चारकुनामा बाँधिएका जनावर पंछीले सब...

हरिणको चाल हेर्छु, तिम्रै सुन्दरता झल्किराछ गुलाब हेर्छु, हावासँगै तिम्रै आत्मा नाचिराछ हास हेर्छु, तिम्रै सुन्दरताले भुतुक्क भै भागिराछ रुखमुनी छहारि लिन्छु, शितलत...

The top of Swayambhu sees me dancing laughing from the top of lungs touching depths of stomach Swayambhu It looks oh so beautiful This chaitya its eyes reminds me of you Are you watching me? The people here a lot more lively smiling at me reminds me of you Are you smiling at the thought of me? The mani wheel rotating blessing my life reminds me of you So have you blessed my life I've been thinking smiling at the thought of my close ones My mom dad brother family friends and there's you standing so close to me making my heart beat faster teasing me beautifully Look! This spot is so beautiful From here I can see Kathmandu But in every houses I see you Does that mean you live in my heart? Huussshhhh... I hear voices These hills speak of something They speak of you The sky reminds.... WAIT... Are you taking me for fool? Dear, stop teasing me!!! The sky! The sky!! God!! Oh god!! The sky is soooooo beautiful The sky The zeni...

Even this cream donut is uglier than usual today. Milan would still love it though. What? You want some of it? You’re big but still a cute dog. Here take it. What you want more? Here you go. What? Still want more? Here you go and no more, shoo shoo… This park feels so good at night. I should buy a diet coke and wafers. Wafers are bad for you dogs though, haha. I don’t care about the money today. I am not returning to my room tonight. There they are, the burgers. I should definitely eat one. What? You’re still following me? No way, I’m not giving you my burgers. I’m glad I lost the sight of that dog. I can’t even remember how many times my feet have kissed this beautifully paved footpath. These street sellers must be the same ones I saw yesterday. Yet they always feel different. Oh, the book seller has already left. It’s 8 PM I see. These street light always feel good. It’s like they’re happy and happier than I could ever be. O...

Last year on Valentine's or whatever they call it, I remember setting my foot out towards the busy street only a minute away from where I live. The situation had felt real funny because all I could feel was the strong aroma of couples and love (yes, let's go with that). I had felt so embarrased I apparently ran towards my room in search of fresh air deprived of love (yes, let's go with that). This year is different. I feel like it's been ages since I've started seeing things differently. I feel like I'm in a different realm of consciousness surrounded by negativity. No, negativity's not the right word. Maybe "monsters" is (let's go with that). If you think what you're reading right now is vague, just wait a little more. Yeah, I feel like I am surrounded by monsters or demons or whatever they call it. Maybe this is what hell to some extent feels like. Today, all day long, I had been telling my friends what had happened last year on Valentine...

    Picture credit :  https://genius.com/Mogwai-take-me-somewhere-nice-lyrics Two lips shut together tight yet they carry a thousand words This mind makes its own stories of hate, poems of love yet these series internal monologues only see the light of world as jumbled words rarely carry meaning while some mourn and tell me its heart wrenching because dark are those words awfully let out through dry tears that cry in monotone while my heart feels like a heavy stone floating in mid summer sea alone… alone…                                                                                                                     and must I say, very alone struggling to breathe, speak while m...